rainy day spells a perfect condition to laze around at home and sleep. true enough, i fell asleep on my table after attempting one 'living with math' tutorial question. amazing, i could sleep in that position for 3 hours and not suffered from stiff neck. i only remembered opening my eyes when my mother came in to wake me up for dinner, so the rest of the time was spent on quality sleeping. i know i have no rights to talk about being tired. but i should record this day because i had not taken a nap since i graduated from junior college more than half a year ago.
things are no longer the way they used to be. i went shopping with pee yesterday and seriously, i felt happy despite being 110 bucks poorer. firstly, i had not shopped for a long time since i came back from my shopping trip in taiwan. secondly, i had not met up with pee for quite sometime. thirdly, forbidden city kns gathering makes me excited. i splunged and forgot that i am on my way to save my first 2000 bucks. i bought this new pair of shoes which both pee and i fell in love with. i simply couldnt resist its temptation especially when i am a shoes freak! at least i was in the right mind and did not buy a pair of nine west shoes. haha.. pee, lousy attempt to tempt me. and yes, i am going to catch the forbidden city. i am so happy!!! kns, let's hurry hurry book our tickets okay? we shall act the play for jiefang and eve. =)
i miss those days when i can meet up with some friends or spend some quality loner time at a cafe, sipping a cup of aromatic coffe and reading the best novel in town or simply, people watching. relax lifestyle as if society has slowed down just for me to take a break. i have been reading cinderella man before my school starts and i have not completed it yet. i dont have the time to continue my reading since tutorial starts. the feeling just sucks when i cant control the way i want to live in. my life seems to be controlled by some demon in the school who wants to push me down my garveyard almost immediately. my life is evoling around this demon now. DAMN!
take control again! listen to all the mayday CDs i have now. their songs are inspiring and motivative. oh ya! one of my dear friends is going through her mugging period now. go, liting, go!!! i have complete faith in you that you can make it. you MUST believe in yourself okay? be confident and you will have won half the race. =) let's work hard together!
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Monday, August 28, 2006
having fun with technology
the naive me thought the stomach pain was gone because i could survive pretty well without medication on sunday. on monday morning, on my way to school, the pain struck me most unexpectedly. i did not bring my medicine along and i was already out of my house. the usual stubborn me thought that pain would subside. BUT, it got worse and it was so unbearable that i have to skip my eg tutorial just to revisit the same doctor.
"i cant detect any physical or serious problem. it should be intestinal problem and stomach wind."
how helpful right? anyway, i went home as fast as i could because we (goi and i) had to make a trip down to SGH to visit our dear fat and uncle-ish HQ. what was he down with? same as me!!!! some stomach virus infection too!!!! his was like the more serious case of mine.
the main point is the ever clever me bought my laptop with ONLY the ac adapter there because my battery is currently dead. and for some reason, we could only detect wireless network at this cafe at the ground floor. but we could not use the available power plug to use my laptop because the unfriendly staff refused to. what the hell!!! so we went to this so-called internet room and we still could not use the wireless network. we even went along the corridor to try to tap on the network but it did not work except that both goi and i looked like idiots then. to make things worse, this rigid lady who was working there told us a whole list of "CANNOT DOs". i got so pissed off with her that i just packed my stuff and leave. didnt she know that never mess with anyone when one is trying to get things work?
our next stop was this lobby area, hoping that the network could work because we were relatively nearer to the cafe than the room. it still could not work. so we were left with the last option which was the shop opposite the cafe. luckily, the shop owner was the second kind soul i met in the hospital. she allowed me to use the ac power after much pleading. yes! i am a persistent person. we still could not connect. what the hell!! then, suddenly goi had a brilliant idea.
"try opening internet explorer"
the singnet page appeared and we finally realised after much shifting that we needed to sign in. what a waste of time and effort. argH! anyway, we had lots of fun after we got the connection and 2 people owed goi and i a big favour. =) i will be expecting something more than plain water. we maybe the most deperate ac power lookers in the hospital today but it is definitely worth it to go an extra mile for friends i care for. HQ, please get well soon because goi and i have a surprise for you and we are sure you will like it because it is so you.
i will bring my medicine to school tomorrow. remind me to eat them!!!
"i cant detect any physical or serious problem. it should be intestinal problem and stomach wind."
how helpful right? anyway, i went home as fast as i could because we (goi and i) had to make a trip down to SGH to visit our dear fat and uncle-ish HQ. what was he down with? same as me!!!! some stomach virus infection too!!!! his was like the more serious case of mine.
the main point is the ever clever me bought my laptop with ONLY the ac adapter there because my battery is currently dead. and for some reason, we could only detect wireless network at this cafe at the ground floor. but we could not use the available power plug to use my laptop because the unfriendly staff refused to. what the hell!!! so we went to this so-called internet room and we still could not use the wireless network. we even went along the corridor to try to tap on the network but it did not work except that both goi and i looked like idiots then. to make things worse, this rigid lady who was working there told us a whole list of "CANNOT DOs". i got so pissed off with her that i just packed my stuff and leave. didnt she know that never mess with anyone when one is trying to get things work?
our next stop was this lobby area, hoping that the network could work because we were relatively nearer to the cafe than the room. it still could not work. so we were left with the last option which was the shop opposite the cafe. luckily, the shop owner was the second kind soul i met in the hospital. she allowed me to use the ac power after much pleading. yes! i am a persistent person. we still could not connect. what the hell!! then, suddenly goi had a brilliant idea.
"try opening internet explorer"
the singnet page appeared and we finally realised after much shifting that we needed to sign in. what a waste of time and effort. argH! anyway, we had lots of fun after we got the connection and 2 people owed goi and i a big favour. =) i will be expecting something more than plain water. we maybe the most deperate ac power lookers in the hospital today but it is definitely worth it to go an extra mile for friends i care for. HQ, please get well soon because goi and i have a surprise for you and we are sure you will like it because it is so you.
i will bring my medicine to school tomorrow. remind me to eat them!!!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
rainbow after the rain
it had been an emotional roller coaster for me during the past few days. mind over heart? i guessed my mind is not as strong as what i thought it is. i was so vulnerable that i actually broke down and felt helpless. the feeling of being stretched to my limits but i could only run around in this tiny space i had was HORRIBLE!
i am, in fact, pleased with myself at the end of this week. i supposed i have grown or at least learnt something out of the mess. that's what challenges are for. i know where my limits are now and come on, give me another dare and i will stretch further than where i was previosusly.
however, i had to pay a heavy price for all these rushings. i felt this sharp and pro-longed pain on wed during my blading class. it could be because i was overly-hungry? i ate my lunch at 11plus, had tuition immediately after school and only had half an hour to get my butts to the sports stadium. how was i supposed to eat my dinner?
when i reached home, i practically collapsed onto the floor and groaned in pain. it was so painful that i could not eat my dinner. in the end, i took a quick bath and went to sleep with the pain. argh!!! how was i going to have a good night's rest with an EMPTY stomach?
i was so afraid that night. i thought i was going to die, especially after hearing what happened to goi's cousin. i have not done many MUST-DO things yet. i have not backpacked around europe. i want to drive. dont take my life away just like that!
today, the pain came back again!!!! it just spolit my lunch date.
i guess the pain signals it is time to exercise. anybody?
i am, in fact, pleased with myself at the end of this week. i supposed i have grown or at least learnt something out of the mess. that's what challenges are for. i know where my limits are now and come on, give me another dare and i will stretch further than where i was previosusly.
however, i had to pay a heavy price for all these rushings. i felt this sharp and pro-longed pain on wed during my blading class. it could be because i was overly-hungry? i ate my lunch at 11plus, had tuition immediately after school and only had half an hour to get my butts to the sports stadium. how was i supposed to eat my dinner?
when i reached home, i practically collapsed onto the floor and groaned in pain. it was so painful that i could not eat my dinner. in the end, i took a quick bath and went to sleep with the pain. argh!!! how was i going to have a good night's rest with an EMPTY stomach?
i was so afraid that night. i thought i was going to die, especially after hearing what happened to goi's cousin. i have not done many MUST-DO things yet. i have not backpacked around europe. i want to drive. dont take my life away just like that!
today, the pain came back again!!!! it just spolit my lunch date.
i guess the pain signals it is time to exercise. anybody?
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
so helpless!
realising your dream is a tough journey. but, giving everything up when you are enjoying what you are doing now and knowing that you take great pain to come so far, is even harder.
this dilemna is driving me and her crazy. i feel helpless because for once, i cannot find my direction. i dont know how, where and what should i do? all i can do is to listen and give her some advice. i am not sure if my advice is of any help to her. maybe i have confused her even more because i myself dont know what to do as well.
my dominant personality is leaving me bit by bit now. somehow, i cant think as logically as before. i cant seem to make rational decision in this situation. to be frank, my stand tends towards hers. i know i will receive violent objection from some but there is this sth at the back of mind telling me that she will be okay when everything is over. is it the faith i have in her that makes me to believe that she will take extra extra extra care of herself?
actually, i believe she knows what is best for her. our opinions are just for reference to show her a bigger picture just in case she misses out some points. dont be frustrated or confused. hey!!! spend a few hours one day to think about your next step. close your eyes, relax and picture yourself in the next few months. what will you be doing? i guess that could be your answer.
this dilemna is driving me and her crazy. i feel helpless because for once, i cannot find my direction. i dont know how, where and what should i do? all i can do is to listen and give her some advice. i am not sure if my advice is of any help to her. maybe i have confused her even more because i myself dont know what to do as well.
my dominant personality is leaving me bit by bit now. somehow, i cant think as logically as before. i cant seem to make rational decision in this situation. to be frank, my stand tends towards hers. i know i will receive violent objection from some but there is this sth at the back of mind telling me that she will be okay when everything is over. is it the faith i have in her that makes me to believe that she will take extra extra extra care of herself?
actually, i believe she knows what is best for her. our opinions are just for reference to show her a bigger picture just in case she misses out some points. dont be frustrated or confused. hey!!! spend a few hours one day to think about your next step. close your eyes, relax and picture yourself in the next few months. what will you be doing? i guess that could be your answer.
Monday, August 21, 2006
where is my IC?
i felt so cheated for the past few days all because of my pink ic. argH!!!!
i took an hour bus ride to woodlands last Sat to apply for the wireless broadband service for this blackish sliver precious. no worries, i did not go down just for that because i had my guitar lessons there too. so, i happily thought i could kill 2 birds with one stone but i was WRONG!!!!
"sorry miss, we need to have your ic to check if your living address is the same as your mother,".
"but i have my ezlink card. you can check for my particulars with that bar code,".
"sorry, we cant. you have to come back on another day,".
ARGH!!!!! so much for the trouble.
and today, i went to the post office to get a pre paid card and that officer asked me the same question. once again, the ever brilliant karen never brings her ic along unless it is an urgent or important matter. so i wasted a trip again.
this is so frustrating!!!! when i was much younger, i was able to do much with the ezlink card but now, i cannot live without my ic. those were the days.....
i took an hour bus ride to woodlands last Sat to apply for the wireless broadband service for this blackish sliver precious. no worries, i did not go down just for that because i had my guitar lessons there too. so, i happily thought i could kill 2 birds with one stone but i was WRONG!!!!
"sorry miss, we need to have your ic to check if your living address is the same as your mother,".
"but i have my ezlink card. you can check for my particulars with that bar code,".
"sorry, we cant. you have to come back on another day,".
ARGH!!!!! so much for the trouble.
and today, i went to the post office to get a pre paid card and that officer asked me the same question. once again, the ever brilliant karen never brings her ic along unless it is an urgent or important matter. so i wasted a trip again.
this is so frustrating!!!! when i was much younger, i was able to do much with the ezlink card but now, i cannot live without my ic. those were the days.....
Friday, August 18, 2006
our first try
after so many weeks, i finally called jiefang. i rushed all the way home after my lecture today for her. (dont you feel honoured, my dear friend?) i regretted not having a proper conversation with her before she left Singapore. it is okay because i have the lovely technology to help me. email, skype and MSN. gogogogo!!! keep the friendship going. i want to enter the 20th year of our friendship and more and more.
the call brought me back to the harsh reality. no more honeymood periods. i know it is too early to call this the "make it or die" period but the foundation is very important. it is like building blocks. i need to have a stable base with solid bricks and thick cement in order to go high. i need to find my momentum back. i must get back to the studying mood. i want to be high up in the sky where i am unreachable.
i am trying hard to adapt to the new environment. finding my way in the huge campus, getting used to the you-can-choose mind set and definitely knowing more people. this is a brand new chapter and i want to start everything in a good note. shine some light on me and give me a pair of wings. let these 4 years not to be as painful as the past 2 years and i will be good, i promised.
go go go!!! she is trying hard in canada and i shall try as hard as her here in Singapore. i cant abandon my friend when she is in misery. friends go through thick and thin together. =) let's work hard and visit each other soon. i will start saving money because i want to be there on that important day.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
orientation wk 0
0 week is good!
that was the only orientation camp i went before my uni school life officially started. this orientation camp was oragnised by engineering (for short engin). so bascially, my og mates are from all the courses in the engin facility. fortunately, some of them are in the same course as me and i had met my first tutorial mate. haha... what a lucky piece of shit i am.
anyway, my orientation activities were nothing as compared to those that jiefang is having now at UBC. my programmes were the usual ones, like beach games at sentosa, campfire night, SP night and amazing food race. these were normal, but i enjoyed myself pretty much and i have to thank the wonderful company i had. we played painful bruises causing games (all thanks to DAVID IS THE NICEST GUY IN O WEEK), hitting each other at the sun burnt spots after the sentosa trip, playing lame and senseless games.
my og - amber was a very hungry og. we were always craving for food or was it just me? so our favourite pigging out place is fong seng!!! it is the name of a chinese shop near my school but it wasnt the shop we patronized. it was the prata shop beside it. i dont think the prata shop has a name so we just called it fong seng for our convenience. i guess our love for fong seng grew stronger day by day. we only responded when the ogl called us fong seng. amber seemed like a foregin and long lost friend. go fong seng go fong seng!!!!!!!!
uni life has started and i dont feel anything about it yet. i have not felt the full impact yet because the first week is all lectures. tutorials are only starting at the end of the month. most importantly, no lab work for this sem so it is double hurray!! so just enjoy the breeze for now.
that was the only orientation camp i went before my uni school life officially started. this orientation camp was oragnised by engineering (for short engin). so bascially, my og mates are from all the courses in the engin facility. fortunately, some of them are in the same course as me and i had met my first tutorial mate. haha... what a lucky piece of shit i am.
anyway, my orientation activities were nothing as compared to those that jiefang is having now at UBC. my programmes were the usual ones, like beach games at sentosa, campfire night, SP night and amazing food race. these were normal, but i enjoyed myself pretty much and i have to thank the wonderful company i had. we played painful bruises causing games (all thanks to DAVID IS THE NICEST GUY IN O WEEK), hitting each other at the sun burnt spots after the sentosa trip, playing lame and senseless games.
my og - amber was a very hungry og. we were always craving for food or was it just me? so our favourite pigging out place is fong seng!!! it is the name of a chinese shop near my school but it wasnt the shop we patronized. it was the prata shop beside it. i dont think the prata shop has a name so we just called it fong seng for our convenience. i guess our love for fong seng grew stronger day by day. we only responded when the ogl called us fong seng. amber seemed like a foregin and long lost friend. go fong seng go fong seng!!!!!!!!
uni life has started and i dont feel anything about it yet. i have not felt the full impact yet because the first week is all lectures. tutorials are only starting at the end of the month. most importantly, no lab work for this sem so it is double hurray!! so just enjoy the breeze for now.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
guides' gathering!!!!!!!!!!!
part1
it had been a long time since the 5 of us met out. shan went to england for her studies and the rest of us were busy mugging for our studies here in spore. =( anyway, july is the birthday month and we went to cafe cartel for dinner. it was not our orginal eating venue. it was some galilee cafe. i am not very sure of its spelling but we felt that the food they served wasnt exactly fit for 5 ultra hungry people. so we made a change!
we stood outside cafe cartel at cine for a long time because we were waiting for the late comers. most importantly, we were eyeing the occupied cushion seats. they looked so comfortable, just nice for my tired legs after shopping with goi before i met my guides fellows.
part2
national day 2006 has a special meaning for me this time round. my dearest longest and closest friend, ONG JIEFANG, had left for canada this morning. i am not sad but happy for her because she is fulfilling her dreams now. how many of us are given the chance to fulfil our dreams right? so, go go go!!!! dont give up easily okay, girl?
the morning was in a rush because i woke up late as usual. i regretted for not going down to the airport earlier today. i did not have the chance to have a proper chat with her before she left. yes, yes, yes. karen is living her life in regrets now. =( so please jiefang, must email me okay??? let's try out our web-cameraing skills one day.
my mother was telling me that we, the RV girls, were the noisest batch at the airport. haha.. what to do. it always happened when you put the horny eve, bobo lydia, happy pee, blur peiwen, xiaowanzi-ish karen, stoning liting, eye-swollen woon, my dearest ally minghui and the fattest jiefang together.
hey FAT!!!!!!!! i told myself i wont cry to send you off but i still did lah. everything was going fine until i heard someone from KNS said ta zhen de yao zhou le. suddenly, i felt the impact. hope everything is fine for you and i will start saving for your grad and be back home during your summer break!!!!!!! see you in a year's time.
photos link: http://www.flickr.com/photos/72419396@N00/sets/72157594230602401/
it had been a long time since the 5 of us met out. shan went to england for her studies and the rest of us were busy mugging for our studies here in spore. =( anyway, july is the birthday month and we went to cafe cartel for dinner. it was not our orginal eating venue. it was some galilee cafe. i am not very sure of its spelling but we felt that the food they served wasnt exactly fit for 5 ultra hungry people. so we made a change!
we stood outside cafe cartel at cine for a long time because we were waiting for the late comers. most importantly, we were eyeing the occupied cushion seats. they looked so comfortable, just nice for my tired legs after shopping with goi before i met my guides fellows.
part2
national day 2006 has a special meaning for me this time round. my dearest longest and closest friend, ONG JIEFANG, had left for canada this morning. i am not sad but happy for her because she is fulfilling her dreams now. how many of us are given the chance to fulfil our dreams right? so, go go go!!!! dont give up easily okay, girl?
the morning was in a rush because i woke up late as usual. i regretted for not going down to the airport earlier today. i did not have the chance to have a proper chat with her before she left. yes, yes, yes. karen is living her life in regrets now. =( so please jiefang, must email me okay??? let's try out our web-cameraing skills one day.
my mother was telling me that we, the RV girls, were the noisest batch at the airport. haha.. what to do. it always happened when you put the horny eve, bobo lydia, happy pee, blur peiwen, xiaowanzi-ish karen, stoning liting, eye-swollen woon, my dearest ally minghui and the fattest jiefang together.
hey FAT!!!!!!!! i told myself i wont cry to send you off but i still did lah. everything was going fine until i heard someone from KNS said ta zhen de yao zhou le. suddenly, i felt the impact. hope everything is fine for you and i will start saving for your grad and be back home during your summer break!!!!!!! see you in a year's time.
photos link: http://www.flickr.com/photos/72419396@N00/sets/72157594230602401/
many many many many
i have soooooo many things to do at hand now but i am so shagged that i can sleep a minimum of 24 hous. i have to blog about the guides' gathering a few weeks ago, my not-yet-done orienatation, national day and jiefang's departure. =( and photos and more photos before pee and my guides' frens start killing me. my entire room is in a mess once again. 4 diff types of bags are lying on my sister's bed. some orientation stuff are still everywhere. the matri fair bag is blocking my way. i am not done exploring my labtop yet. and i have some computer stuff to handle too. DAMN!!!! now, i truly understand pee's frustration when she had to go for her hal overnight camp. i should start counting my blessings since my camp is not an overnight affair. 1,2,3,4,5....
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